I am basically a lonesome person, and I do not think much about myself.
I am very much different from most people because I think about life allot, and I just usually want to be alone, but not bored.
If you want to be friends with me, don't leave me hanging for months.
I am not going to talk about my maturity level, because that is useless to me now.
I worry about more then life, I sometimes worry about how the world will end up in a few years.
Sometimes I think death is going to be every ware or we make it better.
But...
Seeing that our nature is hostile, we will never make it better.
If we do, we need to get rid of a few leaders.
But whatever...
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Other Characters that my friends made for Assassin Guild. (C) My Friends.
Iron Wings and all of the Characters in it. (C) Me.
No More and and all of the Characters in it. (C) Me.
More Than Just Humans and and all the Characters and Monsters in it. (C) Me.
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Halloween, and Family Behaviorposted Nov 1st 2009, 9:59AM
Mood: Disappointed
My Civil Protection Costume came out well, I should get pictures up on here as soon as I can when ever I get my laptop, which now seems like never, which ties into my family's typical behavior.
Okay, I knew there was nothing they can do about it, but they postponed me getting a laptop four times now. I knew this was going to happen.
Birthday: "We spent too much money on your birthday."
All I got was boots (Cheap ones too.), and about thirty dollars well spent on a Irish Restaurant for everyone at that day. There is no need to use that as a excuse, they just had to be honest with me.
Week one: "Not enough."
Okay, second time, no biggie.
Week two: "Still not enough."
Alright, third, I will give you guys the benefit of a doubt next time, but this does seem a bit repetitive.
Today: "They cost too much."
Okay, now I know there are other things to pay for so I can use the laptop, and that they raised in prices, but they got my hopes up, and made it seem like I am going to get the laptop soon. So over at the place where I could of gotten them, I just told my parents that I don't want to hear about how sorry they are and so on.
Just making it seem like I am going to get something soon, and not getting it at that promised time for more then three tries, is not going to set with me at all.
No I am not spoiled or just upset I did not get a laptop, it is just my family. I do not mind a bit on waiting for a laptop, but like I said: It will not set with me if you promise something that I will get soon, and at that time you tell me to wait again.
I would be fine with being told next month to get it, but if it is going to be week by week by week, I just don't want to hear it.
Also yesterday, my parents made me walk around, up and down a hill looking for a house my Mom's friend lives at (He made a haunted house.), not given a proper address made things not easy for me in the costume, and the PMG Gas Mask lenses were being covered in my sweat, making it more difficult to see where I am going.
What made it hard to see with the gas mask:
-Cannot wear my glasses.
-Lenses were a bit dirty.
-Reduced sight at the sides, so I really have to turn my head in order to see what's left or right from me.
-Sweating a lot under there.
So yes the joke is on me wearing a PMG, but I am just telling you why I am frustrated at my parents as it is.
I am thinking of telling my parents one or the other things to say to them:
- "Okay, next week then."
- "I will wait till Yule (My December Holiday.)"
- "Fuck it, I get the message, no laptop for the retard."
Look you little shit, your brother means nothing to me, and if you are going to throw middle school insults to me, help yourself.
Not like a give a shit about him anymore.
Giving up on his friends only for one reason, if he ever returns from the Army, he is not going to get me back, that's for fucking sure.
Same thing goes for his new girlfriend.
YOUR CALLIN ME A LIL SHIT? look asshole if i wanted to i could fuckin curse you out in so many languages you would be sittin there stumped to your chair tryin to figure out one sentence. so asshole Chcete nad mou klubkách?
Yeah yeah yeah, make a insult out of a language that I cannot understand, thus no insult made.
You can try covering it in every way you can, but you fucked up your brother's chance to be a friend in my eyes again.
I used DVD Videosoft to get the audio off of Youtube Videos.
I get a start for looking for a certain sound in a video, download the audio from the video, and massacre it.
It makes it very easy on me getting sounds for guns or from my favorite game noises.
Like in Skype when I press enter to send a message, I hear that bleep you hear from a Civil Protection Unit from Half-Life Two.
alright.
from your description you sound a bit like me, only a bit more thoughtful.
why do you like being lonely so much?
i honestly can't stand people, being around them, being forced to interact with them because people are just so stupid. i have social anxiety because i am SO paranoid about judgment..but..in the same token-my biggest fear is being alone.
so sadly enough, i have to have moments of interaction-but i mostly wish/like to stick to my small group of friends. but i hardly see them because they're all always so busy, so i end-up being alone constantly in the end.
sure i have my mother, family, but when you grow up with family you learn to not see them/need them the way you need your friends..it's not that i don't love them and don't want to be around them AT ALL, i'm just a bit anti-family as well as anti-social, so i tend to avoid them.
i like being left alone, but i can't stand actually being alone.
You are the first to ask me that, and it is the best question I have ever been asked.
Well I am like you with the can't stand people, and being forced to interact.
It is trying to make a cat fetch a stick with me, I have better things to do rather than to go get a thrown stick.
I do not see why I have to socialize, when I am going to be betrayed and made fun of as usual.
I did, that's why I watched you. I don't watch people randomly without looking at their gallery. I may not always have time to fav or comment, but I do look.
My grammar isn't perfect, I type the way I talk. I'm nowhere near as bad as one of my friends, though. It drives me insane to hear her talk. "I ain't got no money", "That don't matter", etc.
I like their designs. They're unique, very unlike anything I've seen before. Especially their teeth. Its hard to explain exactly what's so unique, I'm not very good at explaining myself sometimes